Annabel Blue

il-a said: I freakin love reading what you write on here! That last thing you wrote was perfect.

Ah thanks! X

Uh -

Its been a while since i’ve written and posted it on here, I’ve been writing a lot in a book that sits by my bedside table, although there are some things i’ll keep, just for me. 

Where do i start? This year has definitely been the greatest year i’ve been alive. I can’t believe how fast its gone already. I’ve been so lucky to have had so many wonderful insanely beautiful people coming into my life and staying there. I think its important, to have those people that feed your mind and make you question, feel, understand and excite you. Without those people, things, life would be empty. I never really understood that happiness could be brought upon by other people, i always thought that the only person that could make me feel was myself, but thats not true; we need people to just be present, happy people, smiling people that you indulge in and they indulge in you. 

This year has also been emotionally and intellectually stimulating. Living by myself half of the time, i have time and silence to think quite a lot. Its been soul enriching as I’ve finally learnt that self love and a healthy consciousness go hand in hand… I was talking to a friend about this the other day, a friend thats a bit more than a friend - We were speaking about how it is important to find inner peace in being alone and being content and comfortable in your own company. This is an idea that i feel really strongly about, it means you’re happy in your own skin and on a broader scale, it means you know the power of self love. 

Living in the City again has been pretty damn enriching. I’ve seen and done things i wouldn’t be open to in Byron, however in saying that, Byron will always be my happy place and my home. Here, however, there are endless places to go, there are always art gallery openings and always  live music to see. I think thats another thing I’ve found intensely enriching - live music. Its fucking food for the soul, its insane how much it enhances your serotonin endorphins. I feel freaking euphoric sometimes when i see and hear and dance and sing to it.  That brings me to a few weekends ago, splendour. 

Splendour this year round was possibly one of the best weekends of my life. Perhaps it was for one single reason, that i met someone who now holds the leavers to the centre of my world (right now), but i learnt things that weekend - after my brain finally started loving me again, ha - i learnt that it is important to embrace new people in your life, and learn from them. I learnt what it was like to establish an equal relationship with people - someone. I learnt how to indulge in another persons thoughts and stem my own thoughts from theirs. I learnt that dancing on top of two peoples shoulders will almost 100% of the time end up in you on the floor of a mosh pit with a bruise but i learnt how to fucking cherish funny happenings like that, cause you don’t get them every day. I learnt that serendipity is a real thing and that everything that happens to you, happens for a reason and that you should act off of what happens to you, who happens to you. Because from learning all of these things, I’ve grown emotionally and in some ways spiritually in that i now know how it feels to love and possibly, potentially, honestly be loved back.  

Being another year older, i feel like I’m closer to doing what i know i am going to do. i’m going to help. I’ve explored concepts that i didn’t a year ago and i understand now how to let go of the leavers of the world and just flow, dotting my mark on this earth in the little things i do to make it a better place. I can’t wait to keep living like this. 

I’ll start writing on here more, perhaps. 

X ab. 

Finding love in Consciousness

When I started loving myself

I understood why I was given the opportunity

To understand why the little things matter

And I understood that every thing that happens, happens for a reason

And I found myself

Enjoying the natural colours that the earth provided us with

At all the stages of the day

When I started loving myself,

I understood how much it means to trust someone and to be trusted

I understood how it felt to be loved and I understood how to love more.

To love another, to love the earth, to love being passionate to love being given a gift every day

Because that’s what today is, it’s a gift

That no body can take away from you

When I started loving myself,

I realized how to let go

Of the things that placed a burden on my life

That I believed were truly vital to my existence

I recognized my emotional gains and my emotional grieves

They were warnings

To not live against my own truth

When I started loving myself, I stopped

I just stopped

And it was good to stop

And I still do sometimes, when its needed

I found enlightenment in knowing that I don’t need a higher power to be enlightened

And could see that everything around me was a request to grow

When I started loving myself I stopped worrying

I stopped depriving myself of happiness

Because happiness is to love

And to love it to be alive

I started writing again, I started being

Just being

With myself

When I started loving myself, I escaped from negativity

I stopped wanting to be always right and understood that everyone has their own opinion and to let them voice it

When I started loving myself

I didn’t worry about my future,

Because all we have is this moment

I found love in knowing I have a consciousness

And that overthinking is not always bad

It enhances our thought paths and reminds us that we have a working conscious

When I started loving myself, I decided there is no such thing as a definitive truth

There is only a perceived truth

An individual truth

And I decided to question my unquestioned curiosities

When I started loving myself

I remembered that we are products of what was once potential

And I remembered

That

We are just.

An adaptation from Charlie Chaplin love finding

in a post-modern form. 

No name. 

ohlookahenrydinher said: You are beautiful...

Ah, merci ! X

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Cosmo. 

harperandlu said: hey annabel, what are your plans for the future? like what are career are you hoping to pursue? :) xo

Im really hoping to become a photo journalist and travel with my job

sa-l-ty said: thoughts on the wenona girls?

They are all very friendly